A friend came by today whose son just finished cancer treatment. Prior to cancer, this young man was not only an avid hockey player, very passionate about the sport but was an awesome player as well. He couldn't play for 3 1/2 years due to cancer and has lost his passion for it. He also lost his desire for fitness as well. Now he wants to be a surgeon (which is great:), however to hear that he has lost his hunger for hockey is odd. I wonder if part of his lost desire is attributed to losing confidence in his abilities. Unfortunately, I understand him about losing passion and confidence. (He is also a teenager and what they want to do always changes)
I have always wanted to act and make people laugh. I remember when I was in school plays, I would walk out on stage and I would forget everything else. I would become my character, I entertained others and made them laugh. When I had the fortune to be a leader, I saw firsthand how being a leader can guide someone and make his/her day great. I loved making someone's day; guiding and mentoring always made me smile. I felt so fulfilled, on top of the world. I was confident that I could do anything I wanted. I remember at one of my jobs, my office was next to a friend of mine who was so much fun and had a great laugh. Someone said our laughter was so loud and great, we made her day. I loved the fact that I could be in my office and just my laughter made someone smile. However, after being diagnosed with cancer and then enduring all the treatments unfortunately made me lose my confidence and passion. I don't get excited for much anymore except for my book debuting :) I used to think, once the kids leave the house, I would try out for some local theatres and try to be in their plays. So much for that desire or dream.
I hope that one day, I will find the confidence I once had and have a different dream.
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