I have been out of work since March and my husband was laid off as well. Things are pretty tight at our house mainly due to COVID. I have survived cancer for 5 years now but unfortunately I still suffer from chemotoxicity which caused me to have a speech impediment. I am not as confident because of it and I blame it constantly as one of the reasons I am not getting hired. I used to talk peoples heads off now I am quiet as a mouse. I would say sarcastic things all the time and contribute to conversations (I thought they were wise) but now I think things in my head and laugh at myself internally. It's hard but I have to remind myself that even though I am different, I am just a variation of who I used to be. I used to be able to work hard, put a homecooked dinner on the table and still have energy to play with my kids. I don't do half of those items and I get tired. This makes me feel like a failure. So I decided to get my Real Estate license. I have to prove to my kids that it's not your "failure" that defines you but it is how you respond! I can't find a job at my level so in order to take my life into my own hands, my response is to try something else. Try a different approach. It's part of the reason I wrote this book, besides being therapeutic, it allowed me to show my kids life sucked for us but instead of it stomping on me, I wore my big girl shoes!
I registered for the Real Estate course and already life is starting to get better. My aunt, through marriage, paid for the course. Life really has stunk for us these past few years but I have to remember that even though we don't have money coming in, we live in a gorgeous home, we have food on the table and unbelievable friends and family who always find a way to help!
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